My Dearest General: It Has Always Been You

Warning: nsfw continued :)

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Jiang Jinyan\'s sudden question threw her into shambles. What—What was he saying? Hadn\'t she stood here, in all of her naked glory, exposed blatantly for him to see? Wasn\'t it enough to tell him what her attention was? Was he trying to tease her again?! Shi Nian lifted her head, wanting to protest; however, all of the words stuck in her throat as she saw Jiang Jinyan\'s serious look. The man was breathing heavily and whoever looked at him could tell that he was tethering on the edge but still, he made sure that she would feel comfortable with whatever he was going to do.

He was sincerely asking for permission. 

Another wave of goosebumps overcame her and she meekly nodded, her stomach twisting in both nervousness and the overwhelming love she felt for him. She could feel Jiang Jinyan let out a light sigh that awfully sounded like a chuckle. He reached out to grab the shower head above their heads and quickly rinsed Shi Nian\'s body. The sudden pressure of water against her skin made her whimper, especially against her already sensitive body. Her fair skin flushed red in allure, so oh beautiful and Jiang Jinyan had to exert all of his willpower not to pounce on her right here and then. His eyes inadvertently landed on her light pink nipples that perked up on attention and he could feel his manhood twitch, slowly but gradually pushing him to madness. 

"Done." He turned off the shower after making sure she was already clean and turned around abruptly. The sudden emptiness snapped Shi Nian out of her reverie and she lifted her head up, flustered when she found Jiang Jinyan walking toward the bathtub whilst taking off the wet towel around his waist. Her eyes instantly fell upon the man\'s slender back, long legs — although one of them was artificial — and firm butt, an inaudible sigh escaped her lips. She stared dumbly as Jiang Jinyan stepped into the tub, sat down and casted his artificial leg off. Raking his fingers through the dampened hair, he gave her a glance. "Come here."

Two images of Jiang Jinyan overlapped in Shi Nian\'s mind. She had also once stood like this as Jiang Jinyan soaked himself in a bucket of hot, misty water. With droplets clung to his naked shoulders and his long jet black hair plastered to his chest which was engraved in numerous scars, he gave her a glance and told her, "Come here. \'\' However back then, Shi Nian was only a servant whose job was to serve her master. All she did was to help General Jiang pour water over his head and scrub his back. 

She clutched her chest and slowly made her way forward. "Can I ask something of you…?"

He raised one of his brows. 

Shi Nian gulped and grabbed the loofah, gingerly circling the tub to his back. "I want to…" Her words trailed off but it was as if Jiang Jinyan understood what she wanted to say, he chuckled lightly.

"Do what you want."

Shi Nian kneeled down and gazed at his back. It was smooth and fair, contrasting to General Jiang\'s tan and scarred skin. Happiness burst forth her chest at the knowledge. "Um...we don\'t have a water ladle here so I can only scrub your back…"

Jiang Jinyan turned his head sideways, half mirth and half exasperation. "Do you remember what I said earlier?"

"I know." Shi Nian grumbled and proceeded to scrub his back, her strength moderate — almost gentle, just like how she always did in their past lives. "You\'re not General Jiang and I am not your servant. But I want to do this for you, can\'t I?"

Jiang Jinyan let himself relax in the bathtub, sighing in comfort. "You\'re free to do whatever you want, Shi Nian but…" His tone lightened, voice airy. It made Shi Nian wonder how his expression was right now. "I would really appreciate it if you don\'t worship me like some revered God. It makes me feel like you\'re so far away…"

Shi Nian\'s movement halted and she pressed her lips tight, a twinge of pain in her chest from the loneliness in Jiang Jinyan\'s tone. So, this was what he had always felt, wasn\'t it? Shi Nian was too focused on herself, on her own discomfort and dilemma, unaware that she had subconsciously pushed Jiang Jinyan further and drew a line between them… 

"Shi Nian, you idiot…" She murmured under her breath, choked up.

"What did you say?" Jiang Jinyan turned abruptly but Shi Nian reached out to hold his head in place, stammering. 

"W—Wait, don\'t look back. Let me...say something first." She let go after seeing Jiang Jinyan nod. Her hands trailed down to his shoulders, caressing the bare skin where his scars were supposed to be. "I\'m sorry, it\'s not my intention to make you feel bad — I said, don\'t turn around!" 

With a harrumph, Shi Nian leaned forward and pressed her forehead against his back. "I know General Jiang is only a past and now, you\'re none other than Jiang Jinyan as I am Shi Nian. For your information, I didn\'t do this because I was searching for the shadow of General Jiang in you either…" She embraced his shoulders from behind and dropped kisses on the back of his nape down his back, her breath softly brushing against his tensed up body. "I am just happy. Happy because you\'re not bearing all those scars again; the proof that you climbed your way out of the battlefields by slaying countless others, the evidence of your sin. Everything has been removed..."

Shi Nian beamed, tears welling up in her eyes. "That\'s very nice, isn\'t it?"

Jiang Jinyan turned around all of a sudden, the rims of his eyes reddened. He reached out to grab Shi Nian\'s arm and pulled her into the tub, taking her off guard. The water splashed out from the tub from the sudden weight. She gasped, coughing. "You—" Jiang Jinyan\'s lips came crashing down on hers, hard and fast, rough and powerful; blocking whatever protest she was going to utter. A whimper escaped her lips which he swallowed into his own mouth, deepening the kiss even more. They breathed the air that the other exhaled and took what the other had to offer, baring everything out in the open. The pain of separation and the joy of reunion, all of them melted into the everlasting kiss.

"Shi Nian...Shi Nian…" Tears slid down Jiang Jinyan\'s cheek as he rasped. "I love you...I love you so much…"

Jiang Jinyan\'s tears tasted salty and astringent, warming her heart and entire body. She was filled with so much love toward this man that all she wanted to do was to give him everything she had. "You don\'t know…" She hooked her arms around his neck and pulled him closer, smiling blissfully. "I have loved you since day one." 

A deep growl rumbled deep from within his chest as he pressed her closer, their naked bodies plastered onto each other, scorching and wet. The man\'s palm stroked her back to the side of her waist and Shi Nian whimpered yet again, earning her another chuckle from him. "So, this is your sensitive spot."

"Ah—Jinyan, hmm...it\'s ticklish there!" Jiang Jinyan\'s hand didn\'t linger long on her waist as it gradually slid up and cupped the side of her breast. Shi Nian\'s breath hitched in her throat and she flinched, especially as she sensed the man\'s scorching manhood rubbing intermittently against her stomach. 

Jiang Jinyan moved to palm her breasts, murmuring. "It\'s softer than I expected."

Shi Nian\'s mind exploded and she cried out. "How can you say something like that out loud?!" 

"Why not?" The man retorted. Gazing into his hooded eyes, alarm bells rang in Shi Nian\'s mind. O-oh, the teasing and meanie Jiang Jinyan was back. His fingertip grazed the perked up bud, teasing back and forth. Shi Nian\'s eyes widened abruptly as he dipped his head low and took one between his lips. A cry escaped her throat and she arched her back, pushing the mound deeper into his mouth. It\'s hot. The cave of Jiang Jinyan\'s mouth was scorching compared to the lukewarm water. Shivers ran down her spine and an unfamiliar sensation built up deep in her core, rising and rising, sending her mind into the spiral of fervor and pleasure. Her nails dug into his shoulders, pulling out another deep groan from the man.

Jiang Jinyan lapped on her nipple, immersed. The other wasn\'t ignored either from the onslaught of his fingers. In no time at all, her pink areola deepened in color into a deeper crimson, quivering in attention. 

"Jinyan…" Shi Nian gasped, sobbing. She tugged on the man\'s hair but had no idea whether what she wanted was to push him away or urge him to continue. "It feels weird…"

He spoke without letting go, hot breath and teeth grazing on her most sensitive bud. "Do you mean it feels good?"

"I—I don\'t know...ah!" He let go with a loud pop, licking his lips in satisfaction. Without giving her any time to catch a breath, he kissed his way up and bit her prominent collarbone while his hand moved down to that place which hadn\'t been explored by anyone before.. Shi Nian gave a yelp and pulled her legs together in reflex, her eyes wide in anxiety and confusion.